Thought Attacks
I am in the midst of planning my own wedding. The complaint I’ve always had about weddings is that everyone gets so caught up in planning the details of the event they forget to focus on the major life change that is about to happen. I was SURE that if I ever had a wedding, that wouldn’t happen to me. If I ever had a wedding, it would be so simple that the focus transfer couldn’t possibly occur.
Of course, you know the end of this story. I am amazed by how caught up in the details I’ve become. Over breakfast, I ask my fiancé questions like, “What size pitcher do you think we should have on our registry?” I wake up in the middle of the night unable to get back to sleep until I revise the announcement text again and I write a list of printers I will call for quotes first thing in the morning. The irony is that I’m never awake first thing in the morning because I was up in the middle of the night having a thought attack about my wedding.
This worry of mine is obviously a reflection of my anxiousness about the impending (no matter how desirable) change in my life. The moral of this tale is that we all (me especially) have to be very careful about criticizing the ways that people become obsessed, as we are all prone to thought attacks of our own.
